No one said this journey would be easy. That seems to my theme and I'm sticking to it. I made a decision this week that on the surface felt like I was failing...but once I set aside that initial emotional response I found that taking care of myself was more important. I decided to drop my Italian 102 language class. I was completely lost - I couldn't remember those things that I learned last semester; I couldn't comprehend and stay on top of the things we were supposed to learn this semester. I was drowning and knew if I didn't stop, it was going to be a long semester where I would fail the class. That wouldn't be acceptable for me. So in order to fulfill the foreign language requirement for my degree, I'll have to figure out another way. I know that Pima offers languages. Regardless of what I figure out, I will get through it. I just know that right now, in this moment, drowning when I have another choice isn't in my best interests.
I'll be taking down my show in the next couple of days. I've been really bad in that I haven't been back to rearrange the artwork or hang new pieces. School has been very busy. I'm still very grateful for this opportunity to share a part of myself with Tucson. That it was extended for an additional month was icing on the cake. As far as I know, I sold six paintings. Maybe more. Brandi mentioned that there were several people interested in purchasing paintings before the show comes down. We'll see. I really hope that a few of the larger paintings have been purchased. They need to go to a home where they are hung and loved each day and not wrapped and stored at my little place.
I've begun painting my pieces for Painting class that I wrote about last week. The still life - one in candlelight and one with a spotlight. I never realized how difficult it would be to paint in the dark... Think about it. I'm trying to use my instincts to paint, but I still have to see. It really makes me appreciate my eyes even more. I need to paint with more authority; really block in those lights and darks. I'm back to overthinking the process. EXACTLY what I said I wasn't going to do! Ha! I'll work on it. I'm enjoying my Art History class and learning about the ancient processes that went into painting and making the great art pieces I so admire. It truly is amazing to think about their limitations but yet they made so many masterpieces that have survived through the years. I have even more admiration the more I learn. I can't wait to do the walk through the Art Museum with our professor.
I have an Italian History paper to write and these things simply don't write themselves. Unfortunately! Have a good week everyone. Do good things!