I have fueled with my cheese bagel from Einstein Bros and am getting ready to tackle my day. I am slightly (by slightly, I mean hugely) addicted to those bagels. I could eat them every day and never get sick of them. I try to limit myself to 2-3 times a week. And even that seems like too much/not enough.
This past week is a bit of blur for me. Getting everything done before Spring Break was a challenge. Plus, for the first time in I can't remember how long I was actually looking forward to this break from school. I'm taking time off from work - actual time off and not just switching around days. And I'm planning on doing stuff too. My son and I are supposed to hike one of the days, and he said he would carry my painting gear so I can plein air paint wherever we go. I have passes to Tohono Chul Park, and I plan on painting there too. Mostly though, it will be very nice to not have to wake and be somewhere by 8 am (earlier on weekends for work). I also have a crap ton of homework to get through. It's never ending so It's definitely not worth stressing over. I make my list and just power through it.
Last week I might have mentioned I've been thinking about Graduate School. I've begun researching and I've begun making a list of what's important to me (you know, those goals and stuff). So it's official. I'm now taking the steps to apply to graduate school post getting my bachelor's degree. Crazy, huh? I'll write more about this in the upcoming weeks as my list solidifies, as I'm currently at the very beginning stage of this planning. But yeah...I'm excited.
I am trying to keep focused on positive out, positive in...especially with our social culture so hellbent on negativity. I find myself turning away from things that I used to be so drawn to. It's not so much a maturity thing, but more of I just don't have time for horseshit in my life. Pretty blunt, huh? Real talk here. School is hard. And if I'm not in school I'm at work. And then I try to spend time with my dad and with my son. So quiet time is precious to me. I'm quite guilty of hanging onto emotional shit. I own up to my issues. This is my biggest set-back too. I get in my own way. Part of the whole mindshift of positive out, positive in was to get myself in the habit of recognizing how much I've accomplished and how much I truly can succeed at, once I put my mind to it. I am not a failure by any means. People have failed me. Situations have failed. But I'm in control of my own destiny. And look what all I'm doing! Now I'm thinking of continuing forward for more schooling. Three-four years ago I would have thought that just wasn't possible. I'm too old. I can't do that. Well.....yes I can. Yes. I. Can.
So...I must flee for now. I've got stuff to do and then my mini vacations BEGINS! Do good things this week everyone - but mostly, do something good for yourself.