Happy one year Website and Blog!! And even though there have been times I've slacked off on my weekly posting, there are posts from most every week over the past year. Hard to believe, huh? I will say that getting in the habit of writing each week has really saved me several times when having assignments that require writing papers. When you've gotten in the habit of putting thoughts down, and worrying about content and form later, it's pretty easy to whip out a 500-word paper in no time. So here's to the past year on this crazy journey of mine, and looking forward to this next year too.
I sometimes wonder if my success with my Autumn Memories painting was a one-off. In that, I won't be able to do that again. I'm currently struggling with my paintings for class. Part of it is that I'm frustrated with the lack of conducive space to paint in. Part of it is that I start to paint something and it looks bad or not want I wanted, so then I get frustrated all over again. Is it possible to only have greatness once and then you fade back into mediocrity? Currently this is my biggest fear. Not that I won't complete my BFA (which that damn foreign language is still giving me fits). Or not that won't sell another piece again. No. The fact that I made this one great painting and I've now "used up" all my talent and hard work. I'm done. And now that I'm typing this out, it sounds incredibly silly. But it remains in my mind constantly. Which I'm sure isn't helping with the creative process to constantly doubt myself. Sigh! I'm getting in my own way again, aren't I? Deep breath. Another long sip of my chai. Positive out, positive in. I can do this.
So the big surprise of the semester has been ceramics class. I freakin love it. I love creating with the clay. I love painting and glazing the clay. I love looking for new things to make with the clay. Every last part of it I love. I even signed up to take the next sequential class in fall. It has definitely been great having a class that I feel productive and can see success in.
That's it for me this week. Another new month. We are on the downward slide toward end of semester. Just have to keep making my lists and checking things off so I don't forget something. So far, so good. Tomorrow I'm heading out with Michael to ride in Cyclovia in Tucson. Haven't really been on my bike in months. This should be fun! Anyway....have a good week everyone!